haiz...

sometimes, ohno, not sometimes!! it's everyday, every minute, every second..
i would like to be a bird.
A BIRD..
it has freedom, it always happy, it has no worries at all!!
sometimes, i wish i could pass my form 5 faster.. i isn'y happy at all in this year.
i tried my best to be a happy girl. but i couldn't *sometimes does happy*
i really hope i can pass this year faster, so that i can start my new life.
105 days more!!
but i know i would miss some friends..
it's complicated feeling and thinking..
but i know,
i still an contact those friend who really good with me..
HAIZ..
but there's not much.
i ever sad of this word "friend"
as we grow older, we can find that the word " friend" is really far away from us.
do u have any best friend? hmmm.. dont say about best friend, we said about friend.
i knew, i'm not a best friend, even a friend!!
i really cant control myself sometimes.
i cried, but, after crying, i'm still cant do anything.
nobody knows my feeling. and i know, nobody will like to know..
HAHA!!
yup, my best listener is my blog.
i could express all y feelings here.
i knew, nobosy would read my blog, isn't??
haiz.. i'm the person who cry easily.. i hate this attitude!!
here, i would like to say thanks to sian yng, although our relationship is far right now, and i really sad of it..
funny right? sometimes ppl really sad of it, but another doesn't.. by the way, i dont mean u.
what i wan to say is, u rememeber got one time we 'teman' pang sing go eat his lunch??
then we back to your house. i rememebered, u ask me to eat something.
i really touched that day, cos u will still care for me. anyway, maybe u think that is just a small matter.. haha..
hmmmm, and others. i will say next time.
ohya, thanks for chia sing got asked me to kuching fes.. really touched eh!!
although we are not same class.. =)




ps. when can i found my listener? =.=

Blog DYING!! =DD

hahahaha.. SSSOOooooo long dint updated my blog already.
cos i dont know wan say about wat, wan write aboout wat..
and the important!!
my english not tat well!!!
anyway. nevermind..
nobody read it as well..
xDDD

the title of ' PEkCHeK'!!!

hmmm.. today i'm very pekchek. it's cause of many things..
first.. second.. third.. fourth.. SO MANY!!! ARGHH!!!!!!!!
i TAHAN whole day. i cant tahan anymore.. i feel tat i almost burst!!
aGHHHHH!!! maybe, this is the day of me tat non-hyperactive..
very pekchek.. really.. HAIZ..

kids, guys, mans!!!

how i believe in guy anymore??
at first, it's really hard for me to believe u! but now wat have u done??!!
not juz once! but many timeS!!! how could i believe u again??
but my stupid brain still believe in u!! how stupid i am??!!
pls, if u like her, dont appear in front of me anymore!! i really hope tat i can disappear form this world! but i cant!! i know i cant!!
so, pl.. if u chasing her. dont spread the news!!
when u chasing one girl, your friends said tat u like another girls!!
wat is your feeeling?? wat is my feeling??
u are happy but i am not!!
do u really know my feeling??
pls, be honest to your heart next time!! dont let another ppl like me suffer anymore!!
count as i beg u!!!


***written by stupid girl***

forgiveness..

actually i cant forgive myself..
of course it have some reason..
but i dint tell anyone..
cos if i tell it will happen again.. or i can say it already happened..
it's faith!! =)
now i'm trying.. trying hardly to forget the pain.. the feeling.. and everything.
but.. is it easy??
hahahahahaha..
besides trying still is trying..
I KNOW I CAN!!! JIA YOU!~~

moody~~

this week!! is my moody week!! i cried many times.. but.. is it work??
haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz!!!!
i feel tat i wan express my feeling now!! but how can i express out?
i really dont know.. i just know.. I JUST KNOW I JUST CAN CRY!!!
besides that.. i really dont know what should i do..
i dint blame anyone but myself.. i know i'm wrong.. i make u suffer all the time. i'm really sry.
what i'm disappointed is.. u are the guy make me believed but also the only guy make me do not believe!!
i think u also feel tat we always quarrel this few times.. me too!!
i'm really tire of it!! now, i just know, if u like someone. u wont hurt her, do something wrong to her.. this is the most important..
actually i already forgave u many times.. but u still like this.. my heart really not strong enough to 'tahan' all this. I'm sorry..

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the feeling~

what's your feeling if the person like u but he still help others while u are in bad situation too??
I think no one will know, haha.
this week, i really beh tahan something. hope LORD can help me overcome it...
sure HE will.. AMEN
Now, i facing some problem, but i hope it will not 'halang' me to baptize..
i really hope. His family will become christian too..
Especially his mum..
Erm, the exam, PS2 is over!! but.. my result is KNS!!!
will try harder next time.. haha
today is last day to school an this year..
it's passed very fast.. the things happen in January juz like happen in yesterday..
haiz..